I suddenly realized that writing blog is all about communicating with yourself, especially when you're writing about what you're thinking. As for me now, I'm totally prepared for winter, not physically, but mentally.
My state of mind is not much different from the winter. Cold and indifferent seemed best to describe my attitude towards virtually everything. Well, such might be a result of experiencing too little warmth in this stage of my life. To me, genuine and sincere caring is more and more like the fairies that only exists in fairytales. All I see now are individuals too preoccupied with themselves to be concerned about other people. If somebody appeared to care about somebody else, it's most likely that he is actually doing so because he cares about himself in the first place.
There's of course nothing wrong with that; anyway, we are the ones who are living our lives. It's just sad to know that the good values prevalent in the moral education textbooks are actually socially infeasible, probably no different like how disappointed kids feel when they find out Santa Clause is just a fantasy. Again, I'm most probably biased not having seeing enough, but right now the whole social structure seems like a pretentious construct which participants in it engage themselves in countless complicated and intricate symbiotic relationships. The motive behind the establishment of these webs: to survive - the most primitive goal, the sole message embedded in our deepest core.
Like winter too, the coldness, indifference and skepticism surprisingly result in a form of unearthly tranquility in my mind. Well, why taking things so seriously then, when you know the idealistic form of world is beyond grasp? Why don't just play along with the crowd and enjoy the process with a watching eye? The idea that I'm just a infinitesimal grain helplessly carried away by the current of life used to trouble me, but right now I'm just going to ride on the drift and appreciate what I have. Who cares whether genuine relationship exists. It's definitely cold, but the serenity seems to offer a peace of mind.
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Hey, there seems to be too many negative emotions with you these few days.
I know I can't help much, but just in case you need someone to talk to or whatsoever, hehe, I'm more than willing to lend you my ears. But must return them back to me lar :p
Cheers more, and less sighz =)
(oops, haha, i'm the one who sighs the most apparently)
Winter can be cold and indifferent, if you choose to stay outside all the time. It can be warm and soothing, if you in turn choose to stay indoor and indulge a cup of hot chocolate (Irrelevant: e.g. Starbucks Hot Chocolate). Therefore, it all boils down to your own perspective. Given the same situation, person A can be very optimistic while person B can be extremely pessimistic, for example. A cold and austere winter or a warm and comfortable spring, it's your choice.
After all, life is just a state of mind.
Well, I'm trying to say that I don't hate winter anymore, instead, I kinda enjoy it now (masochism? hell no..:P).
Again it depends on how you perceive things. I'm perfectly aware the you yourself is the master of your own emotions. I myself hate to be too tied down and influenced by the trivialities of life. So no fear guys.
I don't quite like the tone of this post too...too gray and negative it appears. Makes me sound too much like E-Lean (oops another bad joke)..but well, 不吐不快 right? Writing blog seems to be my most convenient outlet right now.
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